a new journey
Part of me wanted to do long form content again, but not really for anyone in particular. I never considered myself a content creator. It's more for me, wanting to carve a space for myself on the internet for something that I missed.
I missed the days of deviantART where we had journals. I missed the days of tumblr where one can ramble on and on about their passions and hobbies and interesting facts. I missed the days of finding random websites and exploring every page and reading what I could find, just because I was curious and wanted to know more about the person behind the website (or the thing I was reading about if the author was particularly secretive.)
I missed talking about my thoughts behind my art process, what inspired me to draw something, explaining the references, diving into a new hobby and talking about it, what worked and what failed, really just treating the internet like a public diary, the things that I wanted to share with the world or to whoever would listen.
I think I just found myself limited with short posts and content, both in terms of character space and also the ability to stay focused on the website long enough. Social media just feels like I'm always rushing to catch up on something I missed because it's too dynamic. Things keep changing every second, and it felt like every second I wasn't watching it, I might be missing out on something.
So now, as an older person, I'm slowing down and trying to reconnect with my younger self. I can't explain it at this moment, but I'm finding myself happier with my hobbies and the way I'm approaching them. Maybe it's because of feeling like I'm "allowing" myself to do these things, even though I wasn't consciously limiting myself before (or so I think.) It's also kind of nice that writing on this new blog is a way to slow down and collect my thoughts.
Well, I hope this is something that I'll like doing so we'll see perhaps in a future post.